When she stops kissing you,

shatter the silverware by her feet

let the sink in the kitchen overflow

hide her medication between the cushions

purchase a bag of twenty pounds goat liver

and pour blood on the kitchen floor

that she has to speak to you.

When she no longer calls you daddy,

force the screwdrivers into the bathroom tiles

call her name backwards

speak to God and the devil when she enters the room

change your devotion into cultic worship.

When she does not search for you,

throw yourself into the sea

seek the realest pain and return to her feet

start the cycle all over again.